Waiting for the....Coming Dawn....

I ....Clean the Traces....

Looking Foward Looking Back....I Keep on Waiting....

From Inside....

New colouring Horizon....

Welcome the Still....

Whispers....

Bear the cross....

Away....

I Will Wait....Until i Find You

In the silence of the night
i can almost hear your footsteps
echoing in the desert street
guided by an invisible force
i keep on moving

Apparently to those watching
on an aimless quest
but they are mistaken
my apparent lack of destiny
only a trick to elude those
dark souls that keep haunting me
that keep me enslaved in an unbreakable bond

But in my heart i know the reason
your presence i can almost feel
your light will be the tool that i will need to
break free from this invisible prison

Your gentle touch will be able to set me free
Your presence will keep me safe
those dark souls....they....
they will finally be cast to oblivion
and every time that i will enunciate your name
the world will stand still
and only You and i will be able to walk away
away from our pasts running like free spirits
to the bright future that until now has been denied
to the both of us

The world will not end tomorrow....and each day
we will make our own.

Lost_soul

I dont know who she is....

Everything looks blurred to me
My clouded mind puzzles me
Mentally racked,
So many questions and so little truth

I didnt see beyond
But I returned with only one certainty

I shall stay here till the end
Its so hard to slip away, the dice are cast

Im part of the future
But my role has already been written
I neither know the rules
Nor the one who leads the play

Few answers, but only one reality
My dreams are stormy what perverse illusions !

Damned forever what a sensitive situation !
Then like a cry piercing the night
Her face reappears before me
I dont know who she is !
But shes the only one who can tell me
What the future has in store for me

So many questions and so little truth
So few answers, but only one reality

Maybe its luck,
Ive to find her.

Is it possible to be….

Missing someone I never knew?
Missing the sound of the name I never heard?
Missing the sun touching the face I never saw?
Missing the laughter I never shared?
Missing even all those tears I were unable to stop from falling?
Missing the scent of your perfume in the air?
Missing your gentle touch on my skin?
Missing your light footsteps behind me?
Missing your presence near me?

In My World it is....but soon I WILL FIND YOU....

Still Waiting for the A......

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

Still....In Love with the Darkness....

No more tears
I'm out of fears
I'm out of pain
I'm out in the rain

It will gently wash away
The light of the day

I'm in love with the darkness of the night
I'm in love with all that's out of sight
I'm in love with the magic of the new
And the darkness loves me, too

Finally
It covers me
It makes me taste
It's sure embrace

It will gently take away
The sorrows of the day

Come out, come out wherever you are
Don't hide, don't hide near or far
Don't hide

Still Waiting for the White Snow to Melt....

In the Garden of Grief....

No More....

Your mind is your first Enemy....

Broken....

Every memory
Every angry thought of you
Makes me certain
What you took away from me

Every moment
Every happy thought you stole
I've not forgotten
What you did to me

Every harsh word
Every cruel trick that you played
Makes me wonder
What I'll do to you

Cause by breaking me
You have made a stronger person
You will see!

Today is the day to take a hold
This is the truth that I have found
For those who tore my life apart
Are gonna find what comes around

Every dark day
Every painful second spent
Made me discover
What to do for me

Cause by breaking me
You have made a stronger person
You will see!

Today is the day to take a hold
This is the truth that I have found
For those who tore my life apart
Are gonna find what comes around

Diamonds only shine when held in the light
You could never treasure me
Now I've made my choice

Every small step
Every link I have to break
Leads me further
Away from you

Today is the day to take a hold
This is the truth that I have found
For those who tore my life apart
Are gonna find what comes around

We are....Not Alone....

But....Remember....

Scars....we all have them....

Try....

Try a thing you haven't done three times. Once, to get over the fear of doing it. Twice, to learn how to do it. And a third time, to figure out whether you like it or not.

By Virgil Thomson

Leisure....

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

By William Henry Davies

Phantom Agony.... Being Lost Between Darkness and Light...

[I. Impasse of Thoughts]

I can't see you, I can't hear you
Do you still exist?

I can't feel you, I can't touch you,
Do you exist?

The Phantom Agony

I can't taste you, I can't think of you,
Do we exist at all?

[II. Between hope and despair]

The future doesn't pass
And the past won't overtake the present
All that remains is an obsolete illusion

We are afraid of all the things that could not be
A phantom agony

Do we dream at night
Or do we share the same old fantasy?
I am a silhouette of the person wandering in my dreams

Tears of unprecedented beauty
Reveal the truth of existence
We're all sadists

The age-old development of consciousness
Drives us away from the essence of life
We meditate too much,
so that our instincts will fade away
They fade away

What's the point of life
And what's the meaning if we all die in the end?
Does it make sense to learn or do we forget everything?

Tears of unprecedented beauty
Reveal the truth of existence
We're all pessimists

Teach me how to see and free the disbelief in me
What we get is what we see, the Phantom Agony

[III. Nevermore]

The lucidity of my mind has been revealed in new dreams
I am able to travel where my heart goes
In search of self-realization

This is the way to escape from our agitation
And develop ourselves
Use your illusion and enter my dream...

Heaven's A Lie....

Lost Inside....

Silence Tells More....

Not This Time....

You know I put my faith in you
(I gave it all to you)
There's nothing left for me to prove
(There's nothing left for me)

And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time

So I push myself away
(I draw away from you)
Sadness left here in my veins
(Sadness left for me)

And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time

And I bled for you
(I bled for you)
This heart has tried
(This heart has tried)
The damage you do is what you never realize

And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time

And I won't be there when you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time
Where you stumble's where you fall
And I won't care at all
Not this time, not this time
Not this time, not this time

Angels Take A Soul....

For this life
I think she knows
There's nothing left to show
Lose your faith
In a world
And the seeds can't be resown
Curtains drawn
She looks behind
No magic left to find
The truth you're not
supposed to know
Her eyes saw long ago

Walk the wire
We walk the wire

With all I am
I stand alone
In fields that I have grown
But if there's
nothing left to hold
Let the angels take a soul

I'm sick of it all
I don't care
I'm blissfully aware
Old too fast and smart too slow
From dust to dust we go

Walk the wire
We walk the wire

With all I am
I stand alone
In fields that I have grown
But if there's
nothing left to hold
Let the angels take a soul
Sick I am
Of fighting alone
The blood I taste, my own
So if there's
nothing left to hold
Let the angels take a soul
The angels take a soul

With all I am
I stand alone
In fields that I have grown
But if there's
nothing left to hold
Let the angels take a soul
Sick I am
Of fighting alone
The blood I taste, my own
So if there's
nothing left to hold
Let the angels take a soul
The angels take a soul

Whole Again....

Find my Strength in the Solar wake....

Cain....

Bitter Sweet....

Inner Sanctum....

The night perpetuates the shadows
still present in my soul
as a sentinel they guard
they protect,keeping at bay
those ill intentioned
those angels of doom
that try but without sucess
to enter the inner sanctum

All those light entities
those beacons of hope
they dare not to approach
the apparent darkness
that surronds so guarded place
afraid to be consumed by it

And so as the cicle repeats itself
and the night returns
i wait....
patiently
for that special being
who through intuition
will have the necessary courage
to realize that the shadows,just illusions
are there just to discourage the weak

I wait patiently
for the one who without knowing
holds inside the key to unlock
this fortress of mine
setting my soul free

Allowing in that way
all the beauty inside to come to life
allowing the shadows to mutate
in a sizzling,bright,blinding light
capable by itself to obfuscate the sun

In that moment in time
my quest will be complete
my destiny fulfilled
my soul free at last
because i´ve found you.

Lost_soul

FUCK THEM ALL....

Those that in the name of peace wage war....

Those that dont try to give a helping hand....

Those that make us feel helpless....

Forcing us in the abbys....



But never affraid....



Of those that rule by fear....



And opression....




Making us unhuman....




Forcing us from home....



Fighting for our loved ones....



Sometimes burying them....





Unable to stand....





For our dignity....



For our broken dreams....



Leaving us with external and internal scars....



Sometimes the Bravest among us are forced to the ultimate sacrifice....



So FUCK THEM ALL....

Wherever you are....i will find you....

I believe that this game is far from over
Your eyes, everchanging
Shred my beliefs
Elusive as air, your million faces
Share a smile, shed a tear
Then you’re hiding again
Wherever you are, I’ll find you
And leave my life behind
Wherever you are, I’ll find you
I’m leaving now
Every moment of faith
Flows unattended
Pressing thoughts so misleading
Into my head
Come out of the dark
Don’t keep me waiting
For the pain is too deep...
Hear me! Come out! Free me!

Deceiver....

For long
I have been hiding
And all the pain I hold within
Sends shivers down my spine
For long
I have been waiting
For a reason to arise
Was it all a waste of time?
I am not who you think I am,
Soon I’ll be letting you down
I am not who you think I am
I’m everywhere
You think I have been lying,
There are secrets
That lie frozen in my silent stare
If you go through my fears
You will see I’ve lost control
All the faith I had is gone
Step back,
Watch me closely
As my crimson wings unfold
You’ll see me as I am
I know, it won’t be easy
But in the end you’ll understand
My instinctive need to fly

Smoke and Mirrors....

Leandra....

Scream Silence

What life means....

What life means....it has no meaning
It is senseless and at the same time very profound
Sometimes it keeps you up with the clouds and
sometimes you are down in the ground in a grave
Life throws problems on you on purpose to make
you lose your sense of living.
The sense of being a human loses your mind
Empty space gathering inside where once your soul dwelled
The life is being driven out of your body like the seconds
of the day you wait for until one day your seconds are up
and you are out of this world
The time drives your mind, your mind drives your emotions,
your emotions drive your soul.
When the time comes near, when the days draw near,
life calms down and lets you breathe your last few breaths.
No regrets should be with you at that point
Waiting for you is the hardest test that God has put upon me
If my love is so, we will be together one day
and then no one will be able to break us apart....ever
These times without you near me will be hard,
but I'll pray to God each and everyday to make things right
what once went wrong -

Because you have my soul...



Author--Asif Kabani

Black Rose....

Gothic Vision....any vision...Just open your eyes and see....

There´s no Tomorrow....each day i make my own....

Dead Can Dance -The Host Of Seraphim

I wonder if....

As the night spreads its grasp
gently pushing the sunlight away
the massive globe of light
that is the sun gives way to
a veil of tiny, blinking specks of dust
A reminder of humanity tears
that have been shed all over the years,

I stare at them and feel small
in the presence of such beauty
alone in the company of so many
feeling the sounds of laughter
feeling the murmurs of pain,
echoing around me,

Wandering if those are not my laughs,
my cry’s of pain that i am hearing,
carried from times long ago
trough those tiny specks of dust
and from that thought i achieve a great sense
of PEACE a sense of BELONGING....

Lost_soul

Sometimes i feel lost in the fog....

Painting by Casper David Friedrich

Whoever you may be....

Always facing your absence
With complete understanding
Always sensing the reason
That denies me your presence
Never for once regretting
The time spent, spent without you

Certain that when the time is right
Our paths will bring us together
Together once again
Because I have a strong feeling
A strong recollection
That these hands writing
These simple words
Have in another time, in another life
Touched your face, drying all your tears
That your smile I saw more times than
The stars present in the night sky

A promise i recall having made
A promise that not even time
Can keep me from fulfilling

A promise to keep you safe from all your fears
A promise to hold you close, so close
That only one heart will be heard

A promise to never let you go
A promise renewed each day
Until destiny realizes the impossibility
Of keeping us apart, finally realizing that we
Belong together,
Together for all eternity.

Lost_soul

Hold on to your smile....

If you're smiling you had better freeze it,
because sooner or later
the devil's going to tease it.
He might just smack it clean off your face,
then put a frown in its place.
Have you walking around in a daze,
while you're trying to
find your way out of his maze.

While you're being mesmerized,
he'll get you all hypnotized.
Then along comes the evil trance,
he'll even affect your love and romance.
Nothing will work out right,
as long as his evil is in your sight.

Welcome to the walking dead,
you'll no longer own your own head.
But you'll feel inflated and superior,
your true reflection won't show up in the mirror,
everyone else will seem inferior.
Others will be smiling and having fun,
you'll be minus none.

OnepoetGem

Angels falling down....

My patience for people....

"They make you wanna retreat into a hole
but i wont,NO"

Running....

Running into the sunset
the stallion's eyes gleam
focused and determined
mane blowing in the wind
never looking back
he will not be tamed
he will kill to be free
death more welcome
than being conquered
or imprisoned.
Unable to be subdued
by any man
steadfast he alone knows
with fierce pride
he is not running away but
running towards life,
towards love,
towards a new tomorrow.
Always the mender of souls
searching to mend his own...


Caryn M. Day-Suarez

White Shadow....

Vivo a minha existencia nas escuras sombras
das minhas acções e crenças,trazidas a vida
pelas minhas esperanças e medos,as vezes nas
lagrimas das minhas desilusões,
desejando encontrar aquilo que se encontra para lá
de todas estas falsas aparências,
buscando tudo aquilo que é real.
Desesperadamente procurando por essa esquiva
Sombra Branca....

Lost_soul

White Shadow....

I live my existence in the dark shadows
of my actions and beliefs,
brought to life by my hopes and fears
sometimes in the tears of my disillusions
hoping to find what is beyond all this
false appearances seeking all that is real,
Desperatly searching for that elusive
White Shadow....

Lost_soul

Count....

Count your garden by the flowers,
Never by the leaves that fall.
Count your days by golden hours,
Don't remember clouds at all.
Count your nights by stars, not shadows.
Count your years with smiles, not tears.
Count your blessings, not your troubles.
Count your age by friends, not years.

Author Unknown

The photograph in this post is from Fernando Dinis
and is shown here with the author's consent.

Some quotes....

It is not the mountain we conquer
but ourselves.

Sir Edmund Hillary


I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer.

Colette, The Last of Cheri


Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.

Cynthia Nelms

Dont cry....

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the mornings hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.


Author unknown
Commonly attributed to several authors

Souls.....

"We do not know our own souls, let alone
the souls of others."

Virginia Woolf

"We Are The Children Of The Atomic Age".....

I.
For we are the children of the Atomic Age
Before our birth our genes were coded and spliced

Yet the earth, the earth, is beautiful

For fallout the wind brings that we cannot see
For nuclear power plants and missiles mapping our trails

Yet the earth is so beautiful

For the deception of powerful men we pay and pay
For their so strange illusion of boundless power

Yet the earth, the earth is so beautiful

for bald eagles and other endangered species
for the tragic magnificence of all the doomed

Yet the earth is beautiful everywhere

For people born today who will not live too long
For the medical profession which has no enduring cure

Yet the earth is beautiful still beautiful

For how we turn to flora and fauna for healing and love
for how those men's vision wins out over the earth

Yet the earth is still beautiful

How we dream again of her green vegetative hair
How they dream of an abstract ghostly heaven

Yet the earth, the earth, is beautiful

For our irradiated food and pesticide-drenched crops
For our vast indulgences that led to these disasters

Yet the earth is still beautiful

For foolish men's dreams of escaping to the stars
For their deadly machinery and all its effects

Yet the earth, the earth, is beautiful everywhere

for how the polar caps are really melting
for our prophecies of falling into the sea

Yet the earth, the earth and sea, are beautiful

For the thousands of species that have already died
For us who would like to survive---
For the earth / sea / sky are beautiful, so beautiful

II.

For how nature's subtle patterns resemble one another
How fireflies mirror the distant stars

And Hindu palaces look like children's sandcastles
And the sea contains butterfly patterned fish

For how black bats spread darkness with their caped wings
And light and shadow coruscate in a dance

For how shadows sew the living and dead together
And spirals connect us--fetuses, snails, corpses--
in the world's coiled womb

For how the willow's slender leaves drop like tears
And foxgloves, little delicate bells of dawn,
sway to the gong of the wind

For how mountains are molded like breasts
And cowparsnip umbels delicate as grandma's white lace

And coleuses might have been daubed by artists' brushes

For how bird of paradise have beaks sharp as feathered birds'
And hummingbirds, fishes, frogs and stars share in the
world's iridescent luminescence

And for how the trees' leaves are their mantle of hair
That they shed and grow, grow and shed and shed and grow again

And for how cat, zebra, raccoon and tiger lily
Are marked by the same winddriven eternal fingers

For how our eyes sparkle like jewels, illuminating darkness--
Brown for the earth, blue for the sky, green for the sea

And for how our bodies contain arteries of water
Like the earth its net of oceans, lakes and rivers--
Its profusion of life sustaining blood

For how the sun rises each morning on its own legs
And disappears each night into a mesh of crimson darkness

And for how the moon trails the sea after it
Like a bride a billowing wedding train

For how fresh snow is like froth of foam capped waves
And for the rainbow painting arches in the sky

And for how we are here today in the flesh
And for how soon there may be few left like us

For we--we are the children--of the Atomic Age

For all this and for the earth, the earth,
Which is beautiful, still beautiful everywhere we go


Copyright (c) Erika Horn 2003. All rights reserved.

Control....

“The closest to being in control we will ever be is in that moment that we realize we're not.”

Brian Kessler

We Are All Adrift....

We are all adrift
on a sea of confusion.
Unknowing of which way to go.
Unsure of the difference
in truth and illusion.
Or when to go fast
or move slow!
Unsure who to trust,
with things we are feeling.
Not knowing how much
we should share!
Afraid to relinquish
the whole of our heart!
Yet, longing to have
someone care!
We must stay afloat
on this sea of confusion,
though some days
we flounder, at best!
Our spirit is sodden.
Our heart feels deflated.
Our soul is not
up to the quest

June Kellum

If....

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!


Rudyard Kipling

Change....

Tempora mutantur, nos et mutamur in illis